We are back with another comic update! I finally have the kids K-12 boxes and now is the season for my nervousness and worry to slowly begin to creep in because I will be the children’s learning coach again this year.
Last year didn’t go very well and the main thing that gave me issues with losing two of my grandmothers last year, finding out my mom’s cancer came back and her health hasn’t been as great as it used to be in the past and on top of that my own personal mental battles with stress, depression, frustration and isolating myself from others that were only bringing in negativity. That’s also not to include I had done my first Kickstarter and was handling emailing the supporters, companies and getting things shipped off all while attempting to teach my children who also had their own complications because of their mood or them not being able to understand or lack of corporation.
So this year I’ve finally decided that instead of packing so much on myself like a mule I am going to work at a pace with my comic that best fits the needs and responsibilities that I have. Since I’m more then just a woman behind the screen making comics, I’m also the only one handling my 3 children’s education, we are with each other 24/7, they don’t leave the house to go to a public school and thus leaving me with time to myself to clean the house and get work done, no, I’m learning to multi-task of educating them, responding to nice and mean comments from others asking where the comic is at or when will the book be ready, attempting to clean the house, cook for a family of 5 and attend church 4 times throughout the week, while handling bills and grocery shopping. I fall short a lot of times because I feel that I’m not doing a good enough job but I know that it’s a learning process and if my mother could do all of this and more as a single parent (we went to public school but she had a job and a lot of times had to work really late) then I know that I can work hard and do it as well and I’m grateful for the help and support that my husband gives and also I’m grateful for all of you sugar-drops out there that understand what’s going on behind scene and are so kind and sweet and encouraging to me. I won’t let a few abrasive words cloud my eyes from all the wonderful love and support you guys have all shown me.
The children’s home-school will be starting next week so I’m getting my mind prepared to take on this responsibility again and I reworked my comic schedule according to what I feel I might be able to do that day and even if I’m not able to do any comic pages that day I will work my comics around the children because making sure they are educated and ready for the outside world is what’s most important. I will stop beating myself up about my own personally set deadlines that I missed and I will learn to roll with the punches. Since I’m a self-published author I don’t have anyone to answer too but myself so as the boss of myself I shouldn’t be so hard on myself ^^; Why is it that us artist and mothers tend to beat ourselves down so much?
I feel that I might have rambled a little but I wanted to get that off my chest and hopefully I didn’t offend anyone of my babble about my goofy comic/mommy/homeschooling life. I’ll make sure to take some pictures of the kids and their homeschool and some of the field trips that I want to take them on with all of you guys <3
Thank you again for listening to my little babble, as you can see I don’t have very much adult contact so when my husband gets home from work I’m either talking his ear off or just enjoying the fact that I’m no longer out numbered XD I can’t wait till the kids get old enough because then I can take them to the gym with me and they can help me at comic conventions and we can go and explore Barnes and Nobles or go get Ice cream together and have long in depth conversations <3 I’m sure that’s not how it’s going to be when they get older so I’ve been trying to do that now but….no kids are allowed at my gym and the conversation I have with them is pretty short….”So do you like your game?” “Yes, I do because it makes me happy, it’s fun.”…….”Good job sweetie.” and that pretty much sums it up XD Since they only know so much English and have only been alive for 5-6 years they don’t really have much to talk about.
This will be a very interesting thing to read back on in 6 more years XD Hang in there future mom! If they aren’t talking to you then put them into a comic and talk to them through the comic ;D I still have a lot to learn about this whole parenting thing so wish me luck you guys!